my inaction, my folly, my fault
ridiculous, imaginary, unreasonable
it’s so silly. i’m so silly. i literally set myself up for, let myself into, got myself stuck in this trap. all by myself. i did it by myself. and now i’m by myself.
i’m not lonely, oh no, that’s not what i’m saying. i’m saying i tricked myself into a fantasy without real world input for years. YEARS. and now my heart aches.
And he doesn’t even know.
Not his inaction, not his folly, not his fault.
Oh, how my heart aches.
i’m such a fool. haha.
just a fool